My mood today has been fairly settled, although my anger issues seem to be cropping up a bit at the moment. I've spoke to professionals about it and they have said it's just because of my fear of change so I am extra sensitive at the moment and snappy. I can be fine and settled then someone will say the wrong thing or comment on whatever I do (seems to be the way recently) and I'll just snap at them. Then I get angry and shaky and just generally really frustrated. It does make my BPD play up too, and my OCD and also my Anorexia. They all kind of get hell bent on making me agitated. My BPD makes my mood just switch (again, this was settled but it's cropping up now because of the move), which then makes my OCD play up because I get anxious, which in turn makes my Anorexia play me up because I get the whole "If you don't eat it'll make everything better, you'll be in control" but that's really not the way it works. You think you're in control when really it's in control of you. However I am still eating enough to maintain, I calm down eventually without doing anything destructive and my OCD, well that's just compulsions and I often do them without realising. As I have mentioned in a previous post, I am working on the compulsions that I am aware that I have but others I don't even realise I do until somebody else points it out. Eventually I will work on the ones that I am less aware of, which will be difficult because if I'm not aware I'm doing them then how am I supposed to stop myself?! Oh well, cross that bridge when it comes to it I guess :).
Quote of the day = "We are all strangers to our hidden potential until we confront problems that reveal our true capabilities."
Keeley. xx
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