Diary 3rd Sept - OUCH

That's pretty much all I've said today - "OUCH" in between screaming and crying. Couldn't go to my appointment with my social worker because I couldn't move and eeeeetc. Not going to moan about it because I'll end up boring you all, I've now been given Micronor (mini pill) to help with periods and Naproxen to help with the pain. Even the Doctor I saw this evening (my GP, he's AMAZING) said he'll keep trying everything if all else fails we'll whip my ovaries out. I swear I feel like doing it myself at the moment.

Having such bad health problems with my ovaries now does actually get to me a lot, obviously because of the pain but because I have been pregnant before and had the termination sometimes I feel like it's karma because I have an extremely minimal chance of ever conceiving again. I only feel like it's karma when I get really down about it though, most of the time I can shrug off that thought and know that NO, it's not karma, everything happens for a reason and my ovaries may well have gotten so bad regardless of if I had had the termination or not. I'll never know and so I can't dwell on the past for what is done is done I have to move on from it. It just feels like a bit of a kick in the teeth some days. 

Still quite tired, as always! No change there haha. Once I get a decent nights sleep I'm going to end up sleeping for weeks at a time. Then wake up feeling nice and refreshed :)! 

I think I'm just rambling on now so I'll stop. Hope everybody has found something to smile about today!

Quote of the day = "Stop beating yourself up! You are a work in progress, which means you get there a little at a time. Not all at once." 

Keeley. xx