Bit of a rough day today.
I didn’t get to sleep until 6:30am this morning and then ended up going to the doctors at 10:15 where they did some rather “intrusive” shall we say, examinations.
I have PCOS and am awaiting scans to see if that is still what is causing the problems but there is a high chance it is Endometriosis.
Have to see what the scan results show and then a possible referral and a laparoscopy if Endo is suspected.
I also have to go and have an x-ray of my chest tomorrow because of persistent pain and coughing up blood on the odd occasion. HAPPY DAYS ALL AROUND! Not. It does annoy me, doctors are constantly saying to me that my weight has caused all of these problems and if I was at a healthy weight and could maintain it for long enough without relapsing then my health problems wouldn’t be as much of an issue as they are now. Next time someone says that to me, I’m going to tell them to give my old GP surgery a telephone call and thank them on my behalf for telling me when I was 15 years old that “Your history of anorexia nervosa has caused your Polycystic Ovaries, Keeley. But a slight decrease in your weight may help”. Not to mention the “Your heart is eating away at itself, a little exercise might help”.
Can I just point out that the comment about my heart was made 2 weeks before I was admitted and it was excessive exercising that caused it?! & they were telling someone with an already low body weight that that a decrease in their weight may help?!
I’m glad I’m not with that surgery anymore, it still annoys me though.
The GP I saw today was fantastic though, considering the allocated time slot for each patient is 10minutes, my GP saw me for 45-50 minutes being thorough with everything.
When I was told that he needed to do an internal examination he was sympathetic of my background (doctors have it all on their files because of my inpatient admissions) and said that he would ask a female doctor to come in and do it because he didn’t want me to feel any more uncomfortable.
The internals aren’t exactly pleasant and with a background like mine, the last thing I wanted was to have a male doctor poking around.
Both he and the female doctor were fantastic and I am now being sent to a private hospital for my Ultrasound scans so I can get seen quicker and we can find out what really is going on.
Apart from that eventful morning, all I have done is sleep up until 4:27pm.
I’m ridiculously tired recently and it’s hurting to move around too much. It does frustrate me being sat on my bum all day though.
However I’m awake now and I’m looking into home courses in counselling.
I’ve always wanted to do something like that but when I was given the diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder I was told I had no chance, that even if I trained and qualified it would be really difficult for me to get a job in the field.
There is a way around everything though and I’m not going to know unless I try!
Quote for the day
“Courage doesn’t always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying...
“I will try again tomorrow”...”
Keeley xx
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