Yesterday my page went up on Wan2Talk and I am SO happy about this! I hope that sharing my story and my inner most demons that I battle each day will inspire others to do the same.
So, today…
I woke up in a pretty foul mood. I literally woke up, turned over, went “NOPE!” and rolled back over again.
I ended up getting up anyway because I needed to have breakfast and start my day then go food shopping.
Breakfast was a rush because we had to take *** daughter to a cheer-leading performance.
I did find this quite difficult as it still upsets me seeing so many people able to exercise as/when they want when all I am allowed to do is walk (and not a lot of it). However I pushed past those thoughts and the guilt that I had and carried on with the day.
It went pretty smoothly up until tea when it was decided that we were going for an Indian meal at a local restaurant.
I got really worked up about it and completely panicked.
BUT I DID IT!
We went out for the meal and I was very nervous and scared.
Guilt was overwhelming me but I DID IT. I even took a funny photo and sent it to Sharon to brighten my mood. It worked, it was hilarious.
The meal was cooked in low fat oil which made the guilt lessen. It may sound silly to some people as it is “only eating out” but for me this was a huge deal.
I am on weight restoration at the moment so, I don’t know, I just, MEH (lol). I ate it all though, and you know what?! I AM SO DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF!
I panicked, I got tearful, but I sat and I did it. “Feel the fear and do it anyway!” I really have surprised myself in a good way. I’m really happy that I managed it without letting Anorexia ruin my evening.
Anyway, I’m off to highlight my hair (my roots are terrible) to distract myself and make me feel better.
Quote for the day
“Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day”
Keeley. xx
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