Diary 18th Sept - Triggered

This evening I went out for tea (scary) but managed okay. I came back and had to sort out loads of forms from when I was an inpatient ready to be photocopied for benefits letters. It's really triggered me, I'm sat here like almost crying. I went on Facebook to try and distract myself and then saw photos of girls with NG Feeding Tubes and now I'm just numb but almost crying. Obviously I don't want to go back to that point where I needed NG feeding to save my life but I still find it difficult to see because its just a reminder of how I was. I guess I should be proud because I'm not like that now, I think it's just reminded me of how much weight I gained whilst in inpatient hospitals and especially seeing my weight charts. I'm just, meh. I don't know. My weight chart needed two pages :-(! I'm just ranting I'm going to make a coffee. I need a cuddle.

Quote of the day = "Forget where you were, focus on what is most important. Your life, your health and your being."

Keeley. xx