Its been 3 yrs since the day I was raped, it’s been difficult I’m not going to lie.
However, I GOT THROUGH IT WITHOUT ANY SELF HARM OR RESTRICTING.
I completed my meal plan properly and I didn’t harm myself in any way shape or form. I’m really proud of myself!
My anxiety did get really bad around 3am this morning but I was okay, I was asleep by 3:30am.
My OCD played up a bit and was trying to tell me bad things would happen if I didn’t do certain things but I faced them head on, thought about it sensibly and realised that nothing bad would actually happen and I was safe.
I played games on my phone, spoke to friends on my phone, had a few cuddles and I was okay.
I even made it through without any tears!
This morning (Thursday) I have been to see my Social Worker who wanted to weigh me but I was really stressed as I’m going to see my Mum today and I’m really nervous about how it’s going to go. It should be okay,
I’m looking forward to seeing my little sister too! It’s just being back in the area that all my problems began I find really difficult and quite triggering. However I will work through it, push past it, build a bridge and get over it!
In a nutshell, I DID IT!!!!!! I’m really pleased with myself!
Quote of the couple of days = "It doesn't matter how you get there, as long as you get there."
Keeley. xx
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