I went out today with a friend of mine who I hadn't seen since March when I left hospital. It was such a lovely day. We went around Birmingham for a while. I ate a yum yum in the middle of Birmingham in public whilst stood in the town centre, again this is something I never thought I was capable of actually doing.
The friend I was with is recovering from Anorexia too and is doing fantastically well, she's really inspired me to move forwards and fight. I did have a bit of a revelation in the bath this morning, I was washing my back and thought 'I really don't like how bony my back is' which was a pretty big deal for me. I also walked past a window and mirrors and stuff and saw my legs for how they really are and not what I normally perceive them to look like. Another achievement. I'm not meaning to blow my own trumpet or anything but I really feel like I am thriving in recovery right now and going from strength to strength. I even had margarine on my toast this morning, willingly/voluntarily, for the first time in at least 5 years!
I'm seeing my friend again tomorrow, she is coming to my house and we are just going to sit and chill out and just watch films and stuff together. She makes me really happy and comfortable :).
I'm actually on the train on the way home at the moment so thought I would update now whilst it's still relatively early and not like 12pm or anything! The train smells funny though, like alcohol and sweat. It's pretty gross haha! Anyway my stop is coming now so I'll be offffff. I'll update again tomorrow!
Quote of the day - "The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present."
Lots of love, Keeley. xx
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